borderline~dear along

aku tgh menanges skg... menanges yg amat sgt, nape nanges? ke saje nak buang air berlebihan dlm bdn? mungkin juga... sbnrnya aku tgh study ttg beberapa penyakit yg berkait dgn my dear brother ~along. dia admit jumaat lps (ms tu kitorg tgh bermati2an meredah jln penuh liku menuju ke danau toba). since last 2 weeks dia mengalami susah nak bernafas. dah refer ke beberapa klinik and diorg sah kan along aku mengalami athma. last friday kebetulan ada sambutan hari guru di sekolah, dlm keadaan sakit mcm tu ditambah lg sibuk dgn preparation ari guru maka keadaan dia bertambah teruk. atas keprihatinan guru2 yg lain, dia pujuk and bw along ke hospital selayang. diorg pun assume yg along mmg ada athma (as told by him b4). smpai di kinik pesakit luar, along di check... then the doctor said that it's not athma and there something else that going wrong with my brother's lung or might be heart. and he was admit that night. ateh and akak sms me at medan, and definitely i will not tell my mak about that. along are mak's buah hati. maybe because he is a son, and naturally son will be closer with mom rather than us-daughter (owh jeles ni!). if i tell mak about this, ada mungkin she will ask me to fly back to kl that night. so i keep the secret until we land down at lcct on saturday evening (26th may 12).

actually there is other story about mak and medan vacation but in this entry let me tell all about along. mula2 ateh yg buka cite sbnrnya. and unexpectedly mak receive the news calmly as she said...aku da agak, dia bukan lelah... huh, bermati2an aku rahsiakan rupanya mak ok je. hehe... mlm tu kami rehat kat umah along di sentul, esok pagi2 akak and fam sampai dan bw kami jumpa along di spital selayang. ms tu dia masih di wad tkt 10-wad biasa. along told us that doctor diagnose that his heart was swolen and lung got a bit of infection due to hypertension blood pressure. that's why he can't breathe well. ms dgr sume tu dr along, aku just...owh just a cause of hypertension, nothing much...just control blood pressure and u will get well soon..maybe. and tonight i just realize that i'm IT person with not enough knowledge about health. heart become swollen because there is to high blood pressure and heart need to work overtime to get blood circulating to organs. it's abnormal to human body since you ask your heart to work more than it can do. owh.. suddenly i feel bad of not becoming a med student...tetiba je kan~tampar muke sendiri!! just iklan sekejap...

sad true...my along had all the disease, sedihnyee... ~nanges lagi. this can cause of stroke... heart stop beating... sudden death (ni yg byk happen to sport person). I just can't stop crying while writing this entry. he's our hero. it doesn't mean that he didn't do anything wrong at all. yes, along are just human. who did wrong and right thing all the time. but he always a rescuer to me and mak. he is someone that you can rely on. he's reserved, you can't ask any advice about cloth or design or opinion or anything that might cause him to speak out but you can ask him to do thing like painting the wall... grilling... all man work and he will do it quietly. he always be in his own space even in the crowd. i always doa that along will get well soon, always be with me and mak all the time. always be the one that we will call to tell thing even we know that he will just reply 'ok' or 'sabarla'. along... i always complaint to mak that you never want to speak much with me... and i always want to do that. when raya come, when other-side's turn for ateh and akak, there is always three of us in the house... u, me and mak. pernah skali tu bila along bgtau mak that you want to propose someone to become your wife, i cry tiap mlm sbb memikirkan nnt kna sambut raya berdua je dgn mak. bila along kata tak jd dgn pompuan tu, nor rs lega sgt. adik along ni sgt mementingkan diri sendiri kan? tp tu la hakikatnya...betapa rs taknak lepaskan along kat sapa2 ~maluuu!!! semunyik dlm selimut!!!

along... you should know that you r always important. i dont want to lose you. please be strong along,take care of yourself i will always doa for you...

eh...nina inteprem lebey... :) along at the back, with pagoda t-shirt